不在理任何的东西。。。

原来一切都是我愿意。。。。

haiz...

为什么会变成这样的呢？
我不想再去call他了，这次打给他因为我电话好像有点问题所以想问他，
但他还是用那种很冷漠的语言来浮浅我。。。
我到底是什么东西，
有必要那么肤浅我吗？我是个有感受的人，请尊重我。

it is time to come back

donno since when i started lost my self,i lost myself in another world,full of fun and joy,very happy...but i know sooner i need to wake up,therefore i choose to wake up now,better than sooner.bcos i scare of the feeling(the feeling from another me to a normal me)...

am i an adult...

我又被家人禁止了。。。。
haiz...
am i an adult...
i know how to take care of myself...
dont worry me too much...
pls stop talk bad about my friends....
i know them well...
i believe them....

*this is the second time u refuse me...
i wish,i hope i can go lol...

为什么没人信

没有人相信我能讲话的朋友很少...
但真的很少...
谁会相信我...
我如果得不到别人的相信,我也无话可说...
因为我事实上有很多朋友
但为什么都没人看见背后的问题呢?
有人会去了解背后的问题吗?
朋友多并不代表我每个人都可以讲话...
每个人都愿意用真心来听吗?
我很傻咯...
现在是么年代,还跟别人说真心...
别人没嫌弃自己都算很好了,好要讲什么真心呢?
really no such thing?really?
i dont believe ....bcos i still searching for it....
even it is hard...

a new friend

currently i know a new friend...
he so special....
he brave argue with me...
this 'argue feeling' left me since both of them gone...he makes me think of them
honestly i damn miss this feeling...i miss...
but wat i can do...
i dont want alone,i scare alone...
where r u now?
pls scold me badly...
while let me know am i still the steven...
i miss,i miss...
i wanna go out, don't want stay.......

六月

很快六月就完，我做了怎么呢？很多东西
但我最想做的就是玩。。。
我真得很想出去走走玩玩
轻松一下
but i know it is very impossible to me....
even now im in holiday...
i cant do something without hard thinking...
'happy moment' will fly away with fast speeds
after that period i still needs to face the problem,until the problem 100% settle.